From songwriting to her brother: What the Billie Eilish doc revealed
The highly anticipated documentary Billie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurry was released on February 26th, 2021 through Apple TV as well as some selected theaters. Directed by RJ Cutler, the documentary follows Billie Eilish on her journey towards releasing her debut studio album When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?
Production started for the documentary back in 2018 and wrapped in the early months of 2020. According to The Hollywood Reporter, the film was allegedly made on a tiny budget of somewhere between $1 million & $2 million USD.
So far, critics have received the film well. Rotten Tomatoes, notorious for their harsh criticism, awarded the film a 7.4 out of 10 score. They also reported a 97% approval rating for the documentary. Similarly, Metacritic threw their hat in the ring and awarded the film a 72 out of 100 score, as well.
The film is a revealing tell-all kind of tale featuring a lot of behind-the-scenes footage from writing & recording her album. However, it also reveals a lot of candid personal information about the singer as well. What exactly did Billie Eilish reveal in Billie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurry? Journey with us as we find out!
Justin Bieber obsession
During a radio interview promoting Billie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurry, the singer discusses the Justin Bieber component of her film. According to Eilish, Justin Bieber was absolutely everything she ever wanted in the world. Eilish recalls that her mother was so concerned about the height of her Bieber fever that she considered taking her daughter to therapy to remedy the situation.
“When I was, like, 12 … that was like my first love,” said Eilish. “I literally remember sobbing into a pillow because I thought, ‘I’m never gonna feel this way about anyone [else],’ I literally was terrified that when I got a boyfriend when I was older that … he won’t compare.”
The documentary includes footage of the first time Eilish actually got to meet Bieber in person. They ran into each other at Coachella in 2019. The footage depicts the two embracing while Eilish cried on his shoulder.
All about Finneas
In the documentary, Billie Eilish reveals her family is an incredibly important force in her life. Her dad taught her how to play the piano & ukulele, while her mother taught her how to write songs. Her older brother Finneas would often act as backup for her in talent shows as she was growing up. According to Eilish, despite the fact that she is now a megastar, she still chooses her brother’s bedroom as her place to write music.
Billie’s brother Finneas produced and co-wrote Billie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurry. The documentary depicts the unique and solid bond that exists between the siblings. They’re clearly creatively in sync and they fuel off of each other often. Finneas was awarded Producer of the Year at the Grammys for his contributions to Eilish’s album.
Despite their ability to collaborate so closely, in the documentary Finneas reveals the truth about Billie’s attitude to songwriting.
“Billie hates writing songs in general,” he says. Eilish makes no attempt to correct him.
“Every single time I’ve written a song that I actually like, I’ve hated the process,” she says. “It tortures me.”
The darkness within
Throughout Billie Eilish’s career, the media has often highlighted the fact that her songs definitely all seem to have a darker edge to them. In Billie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurry, the 19-year-old singer addresses this head on.
“People are always like, you know, ‘It’s so dark. Like, have happy music.’ I’m like, ‘Well, I’m never feeling happy, so why would I write about things I don’t know about?’ I feel the dark things.”
Eilish speaks candidly in the film about her struggles with mental health and her personal battles with extreme depression. She claims that growing up, she didn’t really think she would make it to the age she is now. Eilish openly admits to being a cutter in her earlier teen years, revealing that she stashed razor blades around her room.
“I always had Band-Aids on my wrists. I was literally locking myself in the bathroom and making myself bleed ’cause I thought I deserved it.”
According to Eilish, her mental health struggles were onset by a hip injury that forced her to stop dancing when she was just thirteen.
Her mystery lover
Billie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurry also takes quite a deep dive into the details of her romantic life. While the man’s real identity is kept from the public, Eilish refers to him as Q throughout the film. The identity of the man has since been revealed as twenty-four-year-old Brandon Adams. Adams is a rapper that goes by the pseudonym 7:Amp.
The documentary depicts Eilish definitely falling in love with the man, but it also reveals the breakdown of the relationship too. According to Eilish, whenever she was on the road, she would have a hard time getting hold of her boyfriend. Then, when she returned home to Los Angeles, where they both resided, this pattern didn’t change.
Eilish told Vanity Fair they didn’t want the same things. “I didn’t want the same things he wanted and I don’t think that’s fair to him. I don’t think you should be in a relationship super excited about things the other person couldn’t care less about. I didn’t think that was fair to him,” said Eilish.
The singer further revealed that she didn’t believe that her ex-boyfriend loved himself enough, and therefore, was unable to love her properly either.
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